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Post by Midnight on Dec 21, 2011 17:23:09 GMT -6
Midnight shot him a strange look, but answered none the less. She sighed. "Well, we are never truly alone. For me, when I fly, the birds fly with me and keep me company. The squirrels endless chattering amuses me and passes the time. Usually, I make up conversations they are having. It's actually quite funny." she lifted her head. "I'm glad you have Thunder. It gives you something to do; get her out of trouble." She mulled that thought over for a bit, then continued. "I've pretty much been on my own for my whole life. I have no mate, as you well know. I meet wolves here and there as I travel, and usually have some adventures with them. It doesn't really mean anything to me, just that... I don't know, I'm not good enough. That's what I assume with my parents." She didn't sound sad when she said it, just accepting. "I think we should go find Thunder. I haven't seen her in a while."
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 21, 2011 17:40:32 GMT -6
"She's not mine, you know, it is pure irony that she is all I have to keep me sane, but I don't even have her... I can't have anybody without me betraying or hurting them in some way. I wish she could be, but it'll never happen. For a start, I'm getting old, it'll be time for me to talk the long walk soon enough, there's nobody to stay for. I used to have a family, a Pack, even a Clan, but I left to save my own life when the skies wouldn't rain, and harsh, cold winds stripped the moisture from pretty much everything... I left my mother and siblings to die, and I didn't even know it. You don't know how it feels to have lost so much, I envy you that blessed ignorance, to not know the soul-wrenching agony of loneliness when you wake up in an unfamiliar den, looking for your family, and then realising you left them to die... I can't live after that, I barely sleep, I barely feel anything, I reach out to others, trying to find some sense of solidarity, security, but I am a burden to them, an annoyance and a curse. I bring pain to all those I wish to keep it from." Graal says, sighing with resignation, a low, deep huff that seems to take the strength from him in an instant.
(( Wow, that was longer than I expected XD ))
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Post by Midnight on Dec 21, 2011 18:18:01 GMT -6
Midnight felt her heart ache for Graal. She padded over and gently licked him. "Graal, if I thought you were any of those things, I would have left you to die. But I didn't. You are my friend, and even if we are not mates, I still care for you. I don't judge you on what you did, but who you are. If your family is anything like you, they could still be out there, missing you. I think you should stop moping, and get on with your life. Whether it be protecting Thunder or searching for your family, you need to live your life. Now, clean yourself up, eat some prey, and let's run. I feel old and you need to be outside." she finished. Scraping the snow off the prey, she offered him the prey, taking a fish for herself. She realized her paw was numb, but she still had control of it. It was like it had frostbite. After he finished she would walk out of the den and start trotting, gradually turning into a full-out sprint.
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 29, 2011 4:32:41 GMT -6
(( sorry, I thought I'd replied to this >_< ))
Graal sighs again, ignoring the cold fish and standing up, walking slowly to follow Midnight. "Such energy, just like Thunder..." he thinks to himself, quickening his pace to catch up, "Perhaps she is right. Maybe I just need to live my life to live... But to do that, I must protect someone, whether it be Thunder or some other Vulf. I must fight for something, my life and the life of another. I must love again, even if it hurts me! Pain is life!" his mind yells, with each passing thought, his feet move faster, and soon enough, the thoughts fade and only triumph and wind whip through Graal's body, sprinting through the forest for sheer joy.
"If I am to live, I will live!"
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Post by Midnight on Dec 29, 2011 11:25:17 GMT -6
Midnight glanced back and say the pick up in his stride. She barked a laugh. 'Thunder is right,' she thinks, 'running does help.' Skidding to a stop at the base of a huge rock, she is merely panting, non to vigorously at that. "Graal," she explains, "I was serious about Thunder. Where is she? That's who you need. Siblings and mates keep wolves sane; even if she isn't your mate, you both need each other. I can't keep saving your life," she adds, "it's kinda hard. I also can't act like your little sister the whole time, m'cause that's whay I feel like." Jumping up onto the rock, she settles down on it sideways to him. Clearing a space with her forelegs, she wraps her tail around her paws, ready for a conversation and a plan.
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 29, 2011 18:32:03 GMT -6
Graal shrugs, slowing to meet Midnight, "She is where she is. I don't keep a constant eye on her, I allow her some days of privacy and freedom. If I am always there to bail her out at the first sign of trouble, she'll not learn to live." he says, halting in front of the winged wolf. "I know when she needs me, and I'll leave her in the company of friends. Besides, when have you ever saved me?" he asks, ears cocking with curiosity. "I cannot die, my life is a curse and it refuses to leave me be, I've tried fighting big cats, bears and even the giant swamp lizards, I won't die. I avoid death by luck and by instinct, even your thought push came late, I had already decided to beg Thunder to come quietly..."
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Post by Midnight on Dec 29, 2011 23:56:26 GMT -6
"I saved you when I found you. If I hadn't, you would have sat there on the snow until you froze. And you know I'm right." she added. "I didn't mean for it to come out that way. Hmmm... what I meant was you need a friend to get in trouble with and tell your dreams to and make you laugh and....." she trailed off, tears in her eyes. She shut them tight, causing some to spill over. "Sorry. It's just having a friend like that helps you to never get lost in life. They know what's best for you, and steer you clear of things that will unbalence you. ....I do belive they are called 'lifelong' friends.'"
((what did you mean by the 'thought push'?))
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 30, 2011 6:44:03 GMT -6
(( when she speaks in his mind, he thinks of it as pushing thoughts into his mind ))
Graal steps closer to Midnight, licking her head with a small smile, "Despite my best efforts, Midnight, I seem to attain friendship in many, and I always hurt them in some way. I'm sorry Midnight, please don't cry..." He presses his soft nose into the ruff on her neck, trying to comfort the winged wolf. "I have no lifelong friends left, and before I die, I will hurt you all and make you hate me, I won't let you mourn my loss. That is the kind of Vulf I am, Midnight, I don't want to be remembered, only sink into the darkest depths of time. But I will not die while I have you, or Thunder, or even while Mascamora may still remember me as a brave or foolish trespasser. I won't die when pups love me, and I won't die when others respect me. I will be hated, and I will be scorned, and I can then die a peaceful death, alone. That is how am meant to be, Midnight, you merely prolong the pain of my life. But life is a sweet pain, and one to be treasured, like the pulling of a thorn from your paw, it lets you experience so much more. Pain is sacrifice, and sacrifice leads to the happiness of others, and this is the greatest goal one could ever wish for..." Graal whispers, muffled slightly by Midnight's thick black fur, but understandable. "I have not laughed in two years, Midnight, but I am the happiest I have been since I was cared for by my mother..."
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Post by Midnight on Dec 30, 2011 13:13:10 GMT -6
Midnight felt gratful for the comfort. Then she huffed. "Will you stop lecturing me on how you hurt everyone and no one will miss you? Because it's not true. Your known far and wide, and most people like you. As for laughing, you know I don't belive you one bit." she finished, smiling.
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 30, 2011 17:16:26 GMT -6
Graal chuckles, looking down at Midnight with a wry grin, "While it is true that while I have been in this land, I feel like I can breathe again without this crushing despair coming down on me so often, I had not laughed since I left my Clan two years ago. Once I was here, I met Thunder, and she made me laugh for the first time..." He hesitates, not long, but for a noticable moment, "And you have already helped me, Drappa, just by being here. Just by talking to me... I've no dreams to talk of, other than those in which I die, but maybe one day, one day I'll have a dream worth sharing. Will you be there when I do?" he asks, closing his eyes and tensing his body, already anticipating outrage or rejection.
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Post by Midnight on Dec 31, 2011 8:45:49 GMT -6
"Yes, I'll be here," she replies. Now Midnight waited for him to go somewhere or suggest something to do, because now that that was settled, she was bored. Looking up at him expectantly, like a little sister, she waited for his reply.
((sorry its short for once i really couldn't find anything to say. DX))
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Dec 31, 2011 19:08:23 GMT -6
Graal's body relaxes, an honestly disbelieving smile on his face. "If she has a future, then so will I." he thinks to himself, holding back a tear.
She was his charge now, and he had to look after her, he had to be there for her when she needed him, be there to talk to her and laugh with her. "And play with her!" his mind says, widening his smile just a little.
He stands straight and sighs, turning his back on her and drooping his whole body. "Catch me if you can." He says, then raises his tail, grins and sprints forwards, using his low body to cover the ground all the faster and his muscles stretch and pull, stretch and pull, breathing the cold air deep into his stinging lungs.
"Now this is living!"
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Post by Midnight on Dec 31, 2011 19:17:44 GMT -6
Letting out a joyful yelp, she pelted after him, gaining ground fast. She was overjoyed that he decided to live his life again. Leaping a fallen log, she tried to nip his heels; if he stumbled, she would jump over him and spin around, saying, "I win!!! Now lets play hide-and-seek!"
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Post by kmin66 on Jan 1, 2012 8:18:42 GMT -6
((Ooc: My golly, i am so sorry! anything i had as light green disappeared. try this!)) Ic: He watched them from the sky. What on this xak- earth, he mentally corrected himself, your not in GïSyan anymore, could they be doing? It almost looked like... he searched his mind for a word, and found none. Well, it almost looked like oynayan, a forbidden word (a swear, even) in his homeland. He couldn't believe this, this... kamalsızlıq! Rævon sighed, shrugged, and tried to remember how to introduce himself properly here. He dove, landing in front of the wolf with the strange blueish ruff around her neck. Noting her wings, he attempted to introduce himself in his own language, and dipping his head, he said, "Qorxma, mən heç bir zərər deməkdir. Sizə Günaydýn. I GïSyan kimi tanınan torpaqlarından am, indi orada bir səfil edirəm. Rævon: Sizin gömrük dediyiniz kimi, mən adı ilə təmin edir. Mən ola bilər Sizə xidmət." In case she didn't understand, he said, "Do not fear; I mean you no harm. Good morning to you. I am from a land known as GïSyan, but am now an outcast there. As your customs say, I will provide you with my name: Rævon. Can I be of service to you?" He waited eagerly for her response.
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Post by cptkickercutleg on Jan 1, 2012 9:38:10 GMT -6
Graal hears the pounding of approaching paws, Midnight's form catching up to him quickly. He grins, leaping a fallen log as she gains ground. He lands, looking back to make sure she didn't trip, right as her teeth clamp around his heel, sending him face first into the soft earth. "Ow, that hurt more than I expected." he thinks, grinning as she jumps over his prone form. He looks up at her, a smile lighting up his face, "Very well, Drappa, I'll give you 10 seconds to-" he begins, then takes an alarmed step back as the flying wolf swoops over his head, towards Midnight, "No!" his mind yells, and a ferocious snarl erupts from his body, his teeth bared and his tail arching over his body, "Vos es das!? Vos es voh!? Vy es voh ou!?" he growls, glancing between the newcomer and Midnight. "I have to protect her! No matter what!"
(( Translation: "What is this!? Who/What are you!? Why are you here!?" ))
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