Post by ☣KajiAkuma☣ on Jan 19, 2012 12:15:06 GMT -6
WARNING: What you may see below could make you sick or disturb so please don't read if you have a soft heart and get scared easily.
Future
I'm done with life, been for a long time.
I'm finished with all of you, I'm tired of not being known; having a normal life.
Sitting in my destroyed room, no posters or art. Only a bed and a dresser.
Its all I need.
I have no feeling; I have no emotion. If I see someone cry... I sigh that it wasen't me who made the pain.
When my enemies die; by that I mean everyone. I'll be looking down, smiling and holding that knife.
I won't stab you because I know I don't need to; looking at me you will cry. See my own pain mix with yours... ha, now that's fun.
You will know when death is there.
When I die, I want to be death. I want to go around; taking all your good for nothig souls and kicking them down to hell.
Telling you all how pathetic you're life has been; should of done something with it.
I'm joining the army, not for bravery, not for my country, not for fame.
But so I can kill.
I can kill legally and still get away with it,
I can kill the people who cause misery,
to look down at their faces and spit and torture them.
To laugh at everytime they scream in agonozing pain.
To die in the dirt and mud, no on there with me and watch as people step on me.
To die alone; again.
Please Let Me Die
Take a big step,
each one sinking deeper into the dark,
no eyes on you and all alone.
Don't stop and hold back those tears,
feel the ground crumble below you,
surrendor to the cries of agony in your own emotions.
Let go, lose reality and blow the candle out,
Hide in the pain and let the sorrows ooze out.
Suicide Hits Me Hard
(did this for school)
I was hanging from a cliff, my fingers weakening and I thought back to what brought me there in the first place. Those words, their faces as they wrinkle up into those high pitch laughs. Like a pack of bees, the words stinging me as they open their mouths. Poison oozing out and flooding into my thoughts. I couldn't take it, trying to block out the sounds of everything. It wouldn't work, it never works. Just the old stings swell up and repeat the whispers. I remember finally snapping, my mind blank and eyes stone cold. It felt like I was floating on air. I remember people giggling as I stand up in the middle of class and strolling out. I don't care anymore, they all can go to hell… Wish I could of brought them there. When I finally saw it, my faith. I felt the cold breeze hit my face and tears falling down my cheeks, never making it to the ground. I remember my very last breath, finally peace is coming. I closed my eyes and stepped, feeling the adrenaline rushing through my veins. I started to panic, clawing at the open air. I feel my fingers sinking into the soft soil, the moisture rubbing into my skin. Now, as I hang there a small smile creeps onto my face. The sky looks beautiful and the wind whistling through my hair is soothing. I'm finally happy, no sound, no poison.
Not So Innocent
You shut me out, leave me head down in the ground.
I watched as you turn your back on me...
Now look at yourself, lying in that pool of blood, while I stand tall and my tears spill down.
Words Are My Weakness
My head spins, I feel like I'm falling in a world of pain and misery. I try to block out the sounds of others stinging me like a pack of bees, as each poison escapes their mouths. I open my eyes, stonecold with anger and fury. I see the flies buzz around the heads, eyes blank and mouths open, but no words. Finally, a moment of peace.
Love
Future
I'm done with life, been for a long time.
I'm finished with all of you, I'm tired of not being known; having a normal life.
Sitting in my destroyed room, no posters or art. Only a bed and a dresser.
Its all I need.
I have no feeling; I have no emotion. If I see someone cry... I sigh that it wasen't me who made the pain.
When my enemies die; by that I mean everyone. I'll be looking down, smiling and holding that knife.
I won't stab you because I know I don't need to; looking at me you will cry. See my own pain mix with yours... ha, now that's fun.
You will know when death is there.
When I die, I want to be death. I want to go around; taking all your good for nothig souls and kicking them down to hell.
Telling you all how pathetic you're life has been; should of done something with it.
I'm joining the army, not for bravery, not for my country, not for fame.
But so I can kill.
I can kill legally and still get away with it,
I can kill the people who cause misery,
to look down at their faces and spit and torture them.
To laugh at everytime they scream in agonozing pain.
To die in the dirt and mud, no on there with me and watch as people step on me.
To die alone; again.
Please Let Me Die
Take a big step,
each one sinking deeper into the dark,
no eyes on you and all alone.
Don't stop and hold back those tears,
feel the ground crumble below you,
surrendor to the cries of agony in your own emotions.
Let go, lose reality and blow the candle out,
Hide in the pain and let the sorrows ooze out.
Suicide Hits Me Hard
(did this for school)
I was hanging from a cliff, my fingers weakening and I thought back to what brought me there in the first place. Those words, their faces as they wrinkle up into those high pitch laughs. Like a pack of bees, the words stinging me as they open their mouths. Poison oozing out and flooding into my thoughts. I couldn't take it, trying to block out the sounds of everything. It wouldn't work, it never works. Just the old stings swell up and repeat the whispers. I remember finally snapping, my mind blank and eyes stone cold. It felt like I was floating on air. I remember people giggling as I stand up in the middle of class and strolling out. I don't care anymore, they all can go to hell… Wish I could of brought them there. When I finally saw it, my faith. I felt the cold breeze hit my face and tears falling down my cheeks, never making it to the ground. I remember my very last breath, finally peace is coming. I closed my eyes and stepped, feeling the adrenaline rushing through my veins. I started to panic, clawing at the open air. I feel my fingers sinking into the soft soil, the moisture rubbing into my skin. Now, as I hang there a small smile creeps onto my face. The sky looks beautiful and the wind whistling through my hair is soothing. I'm finally happy, no sound, no poison.
Not So Innocent
You shut me out, leave me head down in the ground.
I watched as you turn your back on me...
Now look at yourself, lying in that pool of blood, while I stand tall and my tears spill down.
Words Are My Weakness
My head spins, I feel like I'm falling in a world of pain and misery. I try to block out the sounds of others stinging me like a pack of bees, as each poison escapes their mouths. I open my eyes, stonecold with anger and fury. I see the flies buzz around the heads, eyes blank and mouths open, but no words. Finally, a moment of peace.
Love
You hold my sore heart,
All my faith in the palm of your hand.
Worry stabs my soul
But
Passion thrust upon.
I cry for being so happy,
For having someone like you.
To
Hold me,
Love me,
Be there for me,
To take the pain away.
Doubt comes inside out.
Knowing you can do
So much
To hurt me.
To make me bleed,
Cry,
Scream,
Cut,
And
Slaughter my own soul.
You seem so perfect.
Eyes of an angel,
Touch so soft,
Voice so tender.
But all can turn upside down.
Eyes of fury,
Fist of anger,
Voice so strict.
Love is a complicated thing.
Its not just happiness
Or
Freedom.
It can be the opposite.
You showed me both sides,
When you didn't even mean to.
I will fall.
I will crash.
I will not survive.
In the end.
For now;
I shall enjoy the moments we have,
Before the darkness covers over.
All my faith in the palm of your hand.
Worry stabs my soul
But
Passion thrust upon.
I cry for being so happy,
For having someone like you.
To
Hold me,
Love me,
Be there for me,
To take the pain away.
Doubt comes inside out.
Knowing you can do
So much
To hurt me.
To make me bleed,
Cry,
Scream,
Cut,
And
Slaughter my own soul.
You seem so perfect.
Eyes of an angel,
Touch so soft,
Voice so tender.
But all can turn upside down.
Eyes of fury,
Fist of anger,
Voice so strict.
Love is a complicated thing.
Its not just happiness
Or
Freedom.
It can be the opposite.
You showed me both sides,
When you didn't even mean to.
I will fall.
I will crash.
I will not survive.
In the end.
For now;
I shall enjoy the moments we have,
Before the darkness covers over.
